We are told in Hebrews that Christ endured the Cross despising the shame. Imagine the gentle story-telling Healer being called heretic, seditionist, fraud, and then marched through town midst the jeers to a Hill of excruciating death in naked humiliation.
And He got through it and despised the evil, abuse and mendacity as things of Satan’s invention, he using as pawns the ignorant, hypocritical and self-serving.
And we want to be like Christ. Andrew Murray wrote an excellent book entitled Like Christ.
But our perception of holiness allows room for the nagging ongoing memories of sins of the past. Must continue to do some sort of perverse penance. Satan is in this as well. We would do well to recognize the game and boot him out through prayer rooted in the reality of Hebrews 4.
Oh but there was that cowardice, that lust, that untruth, that outrageous temper, that slander, that cheating, that foul mouth.
Are you a new creation or do you just mouth the words?
But consider that there have been other grievous shortcomings since entering the Family of faith? Friend get to the well and clean up, leaning harder on the Spirit.
Jesus made it very clear stating ‘ No workman, taking up the plow and looking back is fit for the tasks of Glory’.